I wanted to further my studies in America since form 3. Harvard or MIT has always been stuck onto my mouth and my classmates got sick and tired of it. They labelled me as "Harvard girl". Lol. And where do I end up? Curtin. Not in Australia, not Perth. Miri. Humble Miri.
I had always hoped for an education in the States. I want to be immersed in their diverse cultures. To me, America is a place where I can do whatever I want without having people to say because it's a place where one can chase their dreams. And my initial dream was to be a psychologist, to study human behaviour, to help every single human being by making them a better person. Sounds so noble, I know. But of course, partly because psychologists are well-paid in America. I like to get in touch with human beings, to get close to them, to know things about them, to help them the best as I can. Yeah, that's how I get my "kepo-ness" in schools. But people never fail to find me whenever they have trouble and I never fail to listen to their troubles. In fact, I remember everything they told me. I love psychology, and I do not deny that I still love it today. Harsh reality forced me to drop it. Why? In Malaysia, psychology graduates end up as counsellors and are not well-paid. I'm realistic. Money makes the world go round, and I'm penniless. I need MONEY. I want MONEY. I LOVE MONEY. I LOATHE POVERTY!!!!!
Never mind. Find other alternative. I still have other interest. Engineering. I love creating and shaping the future. I love improving things because I find our current world lacks many things. During KH I always always write down tons of problems and ways to solve it, and that's part of the engineer's instinct. Haha. Never mind. Engineers are well-paid. And the job is interesting as well. And teamwork is involved, which means I need to keep in touch with human beings and not just machines. Most of all, it is fun, fun and FUN. Challenging as well. For someone stupid and blur like me, I need to face many challenges to make me stronger. And challenges is what makes life FUN. Yeah~!!! Dare to disagree? *glares*
Form 6, I'm taking a step forward into physics stream. In class my classmates can always hear me saying Chemical Engineering. Lol. I want to further it in US, UK or Australia. But I did not pursue because I play, play and play. If I were to work much harder and to study more than to play then probably I can pave my way to obtaining a Shell scholarship. But no, dreams are shattered just because I'm penniless. Penniless to take IELTS, SAT tests and TOEFL. Wtf?!! Going to these coveted countries to obtain a piece of paper with logos and stamps need MONEY~!!!!! Hate it. Why do poor people are always excluded from these privileges??? Seriously.
I am grateful that I landed onto a job and has been working for six months. This stopped me from worrying like hell. Hell yeah, anyone who knows me well knows that I am a "deep" thinker whose mind can always float to elsewhere and think about heaps and heaps of rubbish. Sigh. But working, in a way, changed me quite a bit. I get to see different types of people. Nice people makes my job easier. They listens to what I have to say and let me help them get what they want. They know I am sincere to help them (by choosing products which are of old stocks or only left one). The not-nice ones make my job difficult. They ask questions after questions, complains one thing after another, and worst, shouts at me in public. Hell yeah, they shouted at me and spat out vulgar words to me. Nah, the executives and supervisors knew me well so they sided me. Customers sided me as well *glints*. If I'm not wrong I won't have to be scared of what others say about me. People see, people judge. And remember, people are NOT stupid. They have brains.
Okay, I'm out of topic now. Anyways, I obtained my result like what I said earlier and get into the university like I mentioned in my earlier post. Lazy to repeat. It is not what I initially want. I did not get to fly overseas even.
Nevertheless, I am grateful I am given a scholarship. If not, I confirm cannot further my studies. Maybe I'll just continue working at Toys R Us with a basic earning of RM700 per month and count stupid stocks and settle stupid stocks every month and bear with stupid bosses and customers. Terrible. Or I have to go to UPM to do a Bachelor of Science Majoring in Material Science and cannot be a chemical engineer. I am thankful I am able to pursue my ambition. I can still studyi chemical engineering, yay! I'm in an Australian university with 3 months summer break from December until February. I can still celebrate CNY. NYAHAHAHA~!!!! Red packets, ban lak, tai di....money money money:p
Nineteen days before I fly.
By the way I love today's weather. Saves air-con bills XP
