Thursday, July 19, 2012

Taken Aback

Something happened tonight. A friend of mine went around borrowing money to settle off the debt of her boyfriend. She cried when asking for money for me. She told me she could not hold on any longer, when she had to resort to borrowing money around from her friends. I reprimanded the boyfriend because I could not stand seeing how he treated her. I do not like gamblers, and I do not like how he treated her. Thing is, after we left, he scolded my friend, saying she told me about both of their stuff. Saying how she made him lose face. Dude, your face has already been gone if your girlfriend called you up middle of the night to borrow a lump sum of money.

I never like gamblers. I told her to think properly before starting a relationship with gamblers. If not because of this friend of mine I would not even borrow my money to a gambler. I myself very well know that if I were to borrow a gambler money, he will settle off his debt and then gamble again. That is like encouraging him to gamble more instead of quit gambling. But I had to pay, because I do not like seeing my friend begging around asking for money. To be honest, I do not like borrowing money unless that person has no money to eat or whatsoever emergency, and debt to me is not emergency. It is something which you brought upon yourself.

I thought this friend of mine was finally able to be in a steady relationship, was finally able to be with a nice guy who treats her right. Nothing goes smooth sailing though. First, she was entangled with a selfish playboy, which caused her to live a messed-up life until she found this one, and then this one treated her not right. It's a long way for her to find happiness, huh?

In a way I am thankful to God I am no longer entangled in relationships, nor do I feel any pain because of relationships or love. I learned the hard way to start loving myself before loving others, or having a crush onto someone. I am happy with my life currently, and the only things that I have to worry are:

1) Chem-E Car (at the right track but still worry)
2) Cover letter and submission of CV to companies (hopefully I can be accepted into internships...stressed much)
3) Academics (sigh, all so difficult and two coursework-related units...I attended lectures for ONLY THREE DAYS and I am already worn out)
4) ARYLA (of course worry because it is a big event)
5) Losing weight regime (2kg gone; 5 kg to go)

Nah. Lazy want to type cover letter. Need to go for jogging tomorrow. I am so happy I lost 2kg yay!!!

Tuesday, July 03, 2012

Home For A Few More Days

Guess what? Apparently because my dad feared my safety of staying all alone in a double-storey house in Senadin when the place is mainly populated by international students during that period, I was commanded not to fly there tomorrow. My dad said that he would pay for my burned air tickets and asked me to stay until this weekend. It is because Ezzah can only accompany me from next Monday onwards. Everyone was worried about my safety. My dad, my mom and my brother. They kept on asking me whether will anyone be staying with me during the period in Miri? When will my housemates be back? So many questions bombarding me everyday. It is a blessing in disguise by the way. I get to stay at home for a few more days. I get to be pampered and are able to catch up with more friends. Happy I am.

By the way, here is a piece of fat photo of me, so to speak. This is what Kuching has done to me. My mother has been feeding me with food fit for two or even three, even though she kept on complaining how fat I am. Ironic betul ==

Taken today in the car. Sangat the fat and chubby. Can win the Chubbiest Girl title =p
Sigh. I seriously need to control my diet. Losing weight in one and a half months is not easy okay. Worse still, I need to stop gaining weight. Otherwise things will get extremely difficult for me once I start my losing weight regime upon my arrival at Miri.

This picture below was my thinner version when I was in Miri. Sigh. Wait. Macam tak ada =="" haiyah I am never thin.

Instead, let me post a few inspirational pictures. These will surely make me deeply motivated and eat cornflakes + milk for one meal and vegetables for another meal. And if I am hungry grab a sandwich and that's it. Here goes:

Hyomin. She has a to-die-for legs.

Nextly, we have:
Ini sangat inspiring. Jenna Dewan weighs 53kg and she still looks fabulous.
Somehow this picture reminds me of Conie ==""
Okay. Me, a heavy person (I am heavier than I look which I do not know why and am very upset about it) should reduce to 53kg (I think) and redefine my curves. Why am I forever worried about my body? I should start working. But thing is it is hard to work here. Tell my mom I don't want to eat and she will be upset about it. No choice but to eat. Meh. Never mind. I will control in Miri. I did it once bah, and that was last sem. I can always do it again. Difference is I have to diligently hit the gym. Sigh.

FYI results out tonight!!!!!!!!! Nervous much!!!!!!!! Can I make it??? A few hours later there will be another post regarding my results. Unless it is really bad I think I will mostly post about it.

Me, Nature and Inspiration

This picture was taken in 2010 when I went mountain-hiking for the first time at Mt Serapi. Photo credits to Pei Mei.

Me in 2010...I cut my hair short that time ;)
I, who never went for mountain hiking before, managed to finish hiking a mountain without fainting or what in 5 hours. For someone not athletic as me, it is a huge accomplishment to me.

Okay. In 2012 I raced against the sunset to Escobar and captured the sunset, with me blending so nicely with it. Okay. I know. Photo credits to Pei Chen.

Me in 2012 =D
Omg I totally loved the sunset!!!!! It's like I'm standing behind a beautiful painting. But of course, it is obvious that I am really behind the sunset because I am literally standing onto the sea. My feet are being covered by the warm gentle waves of the sea. I am standing there while enjoying the sea breeze. The sky is simply breathtaking. I am sure everyone who knows how to appreciate beautiful things will agree with me here. There are a few times I am tempted to put this as my profile picture in Facebook but, but, BUT, I have quite a number of friends on Facebook who put picture of sunset. No I am not going to be a follower. I am a trendsetter. I make people follow me, not follow people. Hahahahaha. Perasan-ness.

What next? Me standing in a snowy place? Or me surrounded by forest?

I climbed and reached a higher place and chased after my dream and captured it. What does that tell me? Nothing is impossible. Whatever you want, just work hard for it. Start climbing and improving until you reach a higher place. Then start chasing after your dream and make it a reality. Inspiring much?

Next target in life: To lose weight and actually maintain it. Lose SIX to SEVEN kilogrammes and reduce my body size. I seriously need to look really slim while I still have this opportunity. I live only once, and if not now, when?

Additional target: Break through my boundary which stops me from improving my studies. To score well in the remaining 70% after screwing up my 30%. 

p/s: Shall use that sunset picture for my Twitter profile picture instead. Sangat the smart I am ;)

Monday, July 02, 2012

Half-accomplished

Looking back at my post I wrote last year, here are what I have done so far:

1) I attended Sungha Jung's concert. Okay, not super superstar, but a Youtube star is considered. And he's WAY talented than many other superstars out there, to be honest. If I attended Big Bang concert in Japan that is truly a dream come true.

2) I attended Borneo Jazz. As for RWMF, well, maybe next year. One out of two is not bad.

3) I went to Brunei. Is that considered? Oh and yes, I am going to KL at the end of August during my tuition week free, to compensate for not being able to go to KK. Considered granted.

4) No time to do charitable goodwill thing, but if there is a chance, I will most definitely do it.

5) I raced against the sunset and finished the one hour plus trip in less than 45 minutes without telling my parents. Exciting instead of embarrassing.

Not bad. 2012 is overall a colourful year. A year which I got over my old pain and have myself prepared to look forward for better things life has to offer.

The same thing: I need to do research once I go back to Miri. SOON =( two more nights at home with family.

p/s: I am seriously craving for Sunny Hill's ice-cream :O