Happy that I am finally settling down properly in KL after like...two months? I am pretty impressed that I am able to make it all alone. Most of my colleagues were like, wow you are so brave oh! Okay I guess I should not get carried away and move on with my main topic of this blog post, as stated in the title.
I make bigger decisions in life, such as which insurance to buy and what credit card to take. On top of that, I start to spend practically, rather than splurging all at one go once I get my pay like how I used to. I even put away the thought of purchasing Big Bang concert even though it was only a stone throw away from my current humble abode. Fuck YOLO. I've decided to live practicality. Besides, my obsession for Big Bang has gone down and I have decided to be just happy by listening to their songs. *playing Lies by Big Bang currently*
I thought of my future for the past few days. I really want to work my way up, by starting off doing hands-on work and stop to take up Masters and then continue my way up real high. I thought of how I can actually achieve by doing so, and what should I do to achieve. I thought of many many things, such as when can I actually buy a property and what can I do with it. And even considering of buying either a 2nd hand car or a new car.
I guess all of you get the rough idea of what I am trying to say next. For every second we are maturing, our parents are aging at the same time. We are truly growing up when this dawned on us that our parents are retiring and becoming tired as well. Some of us may be starting a business, working on their way on becoming a manager or close to obtaining PhD. Or some of us may even get married and starting a new family. Whatever it is, for every new milestone each of pave through, our parents are getting old.
I started realizing this during my graduation. My parents are really old when they attended my graduation ceremony, as compared to when they attended my prize-giving ceremony during Form 5. Needless to day, they were even younger when they attended my first piano performance when I was 7. And they were even younger when my mother gave birth to me. The sad and yet beautiful thing is that time is irreversible, and what's left are only memories.
I guess we are not the only ones that forgot about that fact. Our parents too, have forgotten that we are all grown up and are capable of taking care of ourselves. In their eyes, we always remain as the little boy or girl whom they love so much. My parents often worry about me, despite the fact that I have started working and making my own decisions (to even owning a tattoo). But the real wake-up call was during this scenario, when my mom found out I made a tattoo.
Mom: Was it painful?
Me: What painful?
Mom: Your strikingly big tattoo ah.
Me: Oh that? *shit*
Mom: Looks nice.
Me: Thanks.
My heart saddened by a little after the conversation. My mom knew I was no longer 18 and I am capable of making decisions on my own. But at the same time that means she was aging as well. I do not know how much more can I give them while I am still working on over there. I am working hard to give them as much as I can while they are still alive and moving, but I do not know when will be the time.
I hope for those who stumbled upon this blog, appreciate the time you have while your parents are still alive and moving. Try to give them your time, because time is more precious than money. Within the time given, try to make it quality time by behaving. Not being rebellious because it breaks their heart. I only get to see all these when I am over 21, so I hope all of you can see it earlier than that. The earlier you see it, the more happier time your parents will have.
I shall end this post with a belated Mother's Day and an early Father's Day wish for my parents. They may not read this, but I hope and pray that they receive this wish.
p/s: I am definitely far from ready for parenthood. I still need a lot of time for myself, so much that I am unable to give it to them children.
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